New horse...new Dad:)

I love the look on Emmah's face with this pic:) This is right after Big Daddy went for a ball-bustin' crow hop ride...I told him NOT to just jump on him but to let me help him up.

Anyhow, this is our new boy, Domino. A cousin of Brandon's brought him over the other evenin', it was a nice surprise!!! This cousin is actually the only one who remembered we have lost two horses since bein' here and Spirit was soooooo lonely. My fil actually laughs when he tells the story of the tree fallin' on my Choncho...how in the world is that funny????? And he wasn't happy to see another horse come here but guess what???? It's our life, our money and our property...deal with it!!!

Domino is a POA (Pony of America) and we're not too sure how old he is. We'll get a better look at his teeth after he settles a bit. What bothers me is the look in his eyes...he looks broken. Almost a haunting look. But he is a very gentle boy who loves the kids and is really mellow, even when we introduced him and Spirit. Spirit gave the horse-y screech right to his face and he didn't even flinch:) To see them hold their noses together and give some lovens to each other was such a special moment!!!! They are pards now...though Spirit heard a horse whinny yesterday and he gave a big whinny back...maybe he thought it was my Choncho boy. I know he is still here, somewhere...and he probably already checked out Domino to make sure he was acceptable for Spirit.

Now we need to get the arena mapped out and done. We also need to get a hitchin' post put in. And after all these years of havin' every kind of tack you can think of, it's mostly gone. Where??? Who knows...I know I left some at my fil but it's gone from his shed now. We do still have a 13in saddle. All we need is a bigger girth strap and it should work fine for the kids. Though I wonder if Domino has ever had a saddle on. I'm not sure he's had a grown man on him the way he reacted yesterday to Brandon. Yeah and needless to say, after Big Daddy did the crow hop ride, the kids passed on gettin' on him lol:) It just started him a bit. I don't think the poor guy was treated nice as he's pretty flintchy with hands and ropes.

Our cousin didn't get his name (UGGGGGG...I hate that!!!) though it should be on his papers (I'll try to get those for shows and such). We finally agreed on a name for him, after a few days, Domino. And this is why...

I still feel a slight detachment from him and Spirit...I guess I am still tryin' to understand what happened to Choncho. And to feel that pain again would be too much...I have a lot of fears...

On a happier note...I FOUND MY DAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy cow...what a shocker. I've looked for him for over 20 years. I've never met him, talked to him on the phone once when I was 4 and didn't know who he was. I'm just in shock.

I was really bummed that with all the technology we have (like facebook) I still couldn't find him. So I went on a mad, 3 day search on fb. I found a few people I thought would be related and wrote some letters. Didn't hear anything back until last week (Tuesday the 19th:) when I got a reply and friend request on fb...from my cousin!!! He said he knew my dad well (of course) and he was a great guy. He also said he was *amazed* I had found him. I did get his number from my new cousin but...I haven't called...

To say I am confused is puttin' it lightly. I had prepared myself for never findin' him, not actually findin' him...what now??? Will he like me? What's he like? What does he do for a livin' (back in the day he wanted to ranch like his dad I think)? Does he have kids (his wife and him tried to adopt me when I was 4 years old because they couldn't have kids...mama said hell no:)

So, I really need to call him but really, what do I say???

O-I bought a pool for the kids! I did some mad sellin' online and got enough for a 15ftx36in pool. It should be good for the kids until next year when the boys are swimmin' better. I will just enjoy gettin' cooled off without the possibility of snakes and big mud cats!!! Not to mention the damned crawdads!!!!

I do need to go and get things done around here before the temps hit over 100 degrees!!! Mercy...another hot, hot, HOT summer...the plants and garden don't know what to do:)

Random-ness and update around the farm

That is me and my Super Hero Stinkie Pete:O) He has been a handful lately though...lol.

What happened with Sheridan has really thrown me for a loop. I have been on a different spiritual path lately and enjoyin' myself and learnin'. But this gave me a lot of questions and frankly, its hard for me to understand. We got really close to her, the kids and our cousin when we lived in Durant, OK for a year. And  I guess when I look back on it now, she was sad, if not deeply depressed. But enough to do what she did? I didn't think so, though we haven't been too close for over a year now. And she was the one I tried to get to go on the Redneck Women show I was supposed to do but she wouldn't do it. Still...it is so hard for me to imagine what she was feelin' and thinkin' when she pulled the trigger. I wish I could have been there for her, helped her some way. I felt somethin' bad comin' but I thought it was our cousin. That's where I have a hard time as well. I'm tryin' to get in touch better with my intuition and the feelings I get and I failed. Though I will dare say I think the kids are takin' it pretty good. Maybe they had grown tired of seein' her that way? Maybe they know she is at peace now? I don't know...but it's really been on my mind. And I didn't go to the funeral...I couldn't do it. Our cousin couldn't go and can't see the kids as it is...crazy life. Selfish maybe but I couldn't feel all those emotions or see the kids. I will go see her at the cemetery though...

Things have been hot and dry around the farm. The grass is comin' in after Brandon planted Bermuda grass (they say Ba-muda here...lol!!!) but the garden could use a major overhaul. I need to get parts of it plowed up and plant for the Fall as I don't think too much will survive out there with the heat. We did get a bit of rain the other night and that has helped. I do have green beans and a few tomato plants. Corn is doin' okay but I need to plant much more and n-s instead of e-w. The wind gets it every time and I actually have string holdin' it up now:)

I finally got my smart phone hooked up to my facebook account. Now I can take pics and put them online for all the family and friends to see. I should have done it a long time ago. I'm tryin' to use my phone more since I pay for the damned thing, I might as well. I also love the radio I put on there and the Weather Channel app. Pretty dandy!! I also signed up for direct tv and it should be installed tomorrow but we'll see. Out here in the country, you never know. I do know I am tired of the crappy HD service from DISH and I like that all the movies and shows will be viewable right away, from the adapter thing. There are a ton of better channels as well...we like TV here and our DVR!! Sounds bad but we do. We live a very busy, full life but also like to unwind and relax to shows we've recorded:O)

Softball is almost over, thank God!!! The gas is killin' us and next week, since Brandon and Emmah's team are second (first place got to choose where to play-dammit!), we get to play in their town over 50 miles one way. Probably at least 3 or 4 days next week!!! They do have a chance to go to state, so keep your fingers crossed. But don't get me started on the new tires we FINALLY got to put on the Suburban and have blown out 2 of 4...talk about a pisser for sure!!! If we do blow one more, the guy will order 4 new ones for us. So, I say, let's blow out one more so we can have some tires I feel comfortable drivin'!!! I swear, ain't nothin' easy anymore...

Montanna has a game tonight to make up for a rain-out game, which actually is very weird because Wednesdays are for church and no practice or games are ever scheduled. And another game in another town tomorrow. Sweet!! Wish her team luck:)

I guess I should go. I'm makin' pizzas for dinner and I need to make the sauce and let it chill and mingle for a little while in the frig. Have a good day and give thanks for all in your life and send positive thoughts out to those who may need a reminder and a soft voice...

Free bag of grain!!

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